WOD #28

whimp, wus, and weakling are the words that come to mind after todays wod..i was so frustrated today and i wanted to quit so bad. but cody was doing the workout too and if i stopped i would have only had to stay there and deal with being a quitter so i kept going..the wod was:
50 shoulder press
5 toes to bar
40 push press
5 toes to bar
30 push jerks
5 toes to bar
20 dumbell shoulder press
5 toes to bar
10 lateral press
5 toes to bar
and my time was 25:22
its not the time i am mad about, its the weights i had to use..i started the shoulder presses out with the 45 lb bar and i did half (with lots of breaks) and then finished them with a mostly 20 lb dumbells or 15 lb dumbells and every once in a while i would grab the bar again..the push presses i started out with the bar again but couldnt do many at all so i did the same thing with these ones rotating between the bar and theh 20's and 15's..the push jerk just sucked..i tried one with the bar but because of the rhythm you needed with this and the coordination i was afraid of dropping the bar on myself so i used the 15 lb kettle weights so that i could get the exercise down good. the shoulder presses by this time killed and i shook each time i pushed the weights above my head so i used the 15 dumbells..the lat presses i tried the 15's but i couldn't get them high enough so i used 10 lb dumbells..i was almost the last one done. pam was behind me but she used the bar the whole time so it still got to me. she was struggling like me and at one time one of the trainers was in her face coaching her through some tears, and i kept thinking she is pushing through and struggling like me. why can't i push through. before the wod started one of the trainers saw pam showing me the way to do the toes to bar on the floor and came over and said "you aren't gonna wus out are you" it rubbed me wrong for one he didn't smile like he was joking when he said it and 2 this demonstration wasn't for me. i have never done them this way and he knew that so to say it made me think that he thinks i wus out all the time..then when i couldn't lift crap i felt like i did wus out so i left when we were done and had teary eyes the whole drive home. i will get over it but i was just mad at myself today. it was the first time i had felt this way and i don't like it.